hiiiiyalllll so update i guess.
ok so first topic;
HOME:
hannah hid the goddamn box of captn' crunch again. fucking whore. she such a child, she does this to all the good cereals. i was going to have waffles but when i saw she did that again i decided the minute i found em, i was gonna eat the whole fucking thing. but the damned flattitbitch actually did a good job hiding them. i looked EVERYWHERE. and when she got home and my mother and i ganged up on her, she said "ya i hid em, but i dont remember where!" bullllllshiiiiiit. i looked at her cereal bowl from this morning, there was capt'n crunch colors and smell! damn, i sound insane. but fuck, i want that cereal!!!
WORK:
so i am technically self employed now! woot! i tried the whole 'applying' thing at stores but it just didnt work. im sick of food service and i want a broader resume so i wanted to get into retail for experience but since i dont have the experience yet no one will hire me. i hate it when they act so interested in me then never call back. anyway now i work for kendall whenever i schedule it (yay!) so its like sitting in on free art classes! i've already learned quite a bit doing it. all the teachers there seem to be good looking and hip people, its intimidating and awesome at the same time.
i also work as a model. i have my model mayhem account and everything [link]
late summer i worked with farside company and did a few shoots, was even promoted to creative board and head model, but sadly nothing seems to be happening over there and i havent gotten paid for anything, i dont even have any of the photos i did yet so in the meantime i have been working with my old photography teacher (and his students), Studio 3G, and theres more projects to come! sadly most offers were for nude modeling but thats to be expected really. BAH HUMBUG to you guys!
SCHOOL:
i have a lot of art done thanks to the class but im not feeling 100% confident at the moment so i havent been drawing. its the whole working for kendall thing, everyone there is so good! i know i should have more confidence, so im working on it. jazz has been so much fun, despite what a work out it is ( my guns are HUGE) and ive met the best people there. but our class always seems so small because of swine flu. im worried im next! epp! oh yeah, and pretty sure im failing math >(
ROMANCE:
so happy to report vin is no longer on my mind, i long for the relationship not the man now!!! im a bit uneasy about a relationship intended for long term but yet again whos to say i'll even find something short term, im so picky!!! i cant help it, despite what a terrible personality vin had, he had style and had the body type i love! i met a whole slew of fantastic guys lately but its been a lot of 'have one or the other'. dont know what i mean? like he'll have the perfect personality but hes not quite my type look wise (not that theyre not hot, just not what i typically go for) or he'll be smoking hot but while im admiring his hottness he'll suddenly say something assholey. although i did find a guy who was half & half. most would think thats a good thing but its really just confusing. i spend most of my time going back and forth on weather im attracted to him or not and getting confused while one minute he'll insult and the next he'll compliment. eh. guess i'll still keep my eyes open.
although there are two guys im particularly upset with (one more than the other) because they have been spreading lies about me either sleeping with them and/or wanting to get in their pants. how childish. i expected it from one of them but the other i expected more from him!!!